Archive for the ‘dastkar andhra conversations/monologues’ Category
Looking for Rajavolu online, I found…
I found Guntur on google map and found tenali and kuchipudi on wikipedia..
What do I remember of the Rajavolu trip?
evidence – and evidence of what and for who?
so what is the nature of evidence in the academe – who is required to provide what evidence and why…
how may you be made ready to hear the voice(s) you ask me/us to reveal to you?
why do you want us to reveal that “authentic” voice to you?
who decided that if I put something in quotes it becomes his authentic voice?
how may you be made ready to hear the voices you think you will hear if we reveal his words to you?
how would you know his “authentic” voice when you do not take the trouble to go there and hear it as a voice in context?
why do you wish me to pull forth his voice for you to pull forth with the click of a mouse
how does that make you the judge of whether or not it is really his voice
why is she assumed to be voiceless
when the conceptualization of “voice” is in your control
still
(k)no(w) you
we will not “give” you her voicings
you will just have to make the effort of trying to understand within what we write
or come down and try to translate it yourself – but be assured you are being watched as you
confident of your ability to translate
invade, capture and preview
hers
and
his
voice
so that they may be pulled up and analyzed and understood
even as you take their daily living away as in the capturing and replaying
you take no note of what they seem to be asking for
because the complexity of what they say cannot be captured, recorded, shifted and replayed
outside
de-contextually
where
all so that you may feel you are a part of the community of protest
you have replayed, captured and colonized his meaning
yet again.
Protected: journeying back to Rajavolu…
why dont we ask this when you walk into a levi stores or a lifestyle mall?
Note – sometimes posts and pages on this blog are password protected – if you are interested in reading and participating in those select discussions – email me and I might consider sending you a password.
If not – keep guessing:)
Usually – I leave most posts unprotected for about 5 to 6 hours (sometimes even more hours – sometimes not at all) after I post them before protecting them.
Protected: continuing conversations …. finding the ruptures
Protected: quote – relevant to dialogues with s, l, sh and a – thinking through representational practices and voic[e](ings)
in mid-conversation again…
….always seeking a conversation with multiple locational contexts contributing to it – while it is important at this stage for you and me to work out our speaking positions (although I dont mean individual speaking positions – even though, sometimes the language is making us seek that in relation to this particular context) and also to try to understand where what we say is feeding into some sort of framework – a framework/audience that IS feeding into what is being labelled as a generalized “development praxis” and it is through seeing multiple ways in which the externallabel is mobilized in particular contexts that we may gain and understanding of how the work being done at DA departs and connects…
dream and wakening….
it is in the state of being in a dream and beginning to awake
the mind is reaching for the unheard
I reached for the cell phone
I thought I heard you answer me
I thought we were continuing our discussions on
[it sounded as though you were continuing a sentence we had started a while ago...]
voice
working class
technological practices
communication
but the call
ended..
perhaps you were saying to me
that the conversation persists there
perhaps that was a part of a conversation you were having with someone else
perhaps you let me hear you at that moment to let me know that we were not
done
conversing
in trying to write a memory together – in trying to hear multiple locations..
it is in the hearing
it is in the seeking
it is in the
not getting offended
it is in the rethinking…
but it is also in the belief that I must hear
or else….
it is a feeling in my gut that if I listen and prod long enough I may hear something …
it is a pain deep down that I cannot locate that urges me
with such urgency
perhaps because intuitively there has been some sensing
that something in what these “voices” say back to me will
temporarily ease my pain…
it is not solace – but perhaps a slap
that will remind my body – and help it articulate
to recover momentarily from the pain of understanding it affectively
but not being able to translate
perhaps I am looking for the boundaries of a container
not knowing what shape the container takes
will take
in the effort to say this this and that…
not that not that not that
na ithi na ithi na ithi…
