Archive for the ‘seema’ Category
She passed away last night.
When friends and colleagues are taken away through the silent violence of cancer….
In these last 10 months I have seen/felt/heard good friends and
devoted colleagues begin to fade away to cancer
it leaves me speechless – thoughtless….
I have no more tears – but the desperate need to hold on to each moment of contact with them – even if it is an email or an image
Depending on where I am placed – in my travels and habit-ation
I am near or far
and find myself constantly (and perhaps selfishly)
wishing only that she will wait at least
until I can see her again
waiting to see what she will teach me and leave me with as she departs
because her departing is so very inevitable
all of philosophy, literature, music, ideology and religion leaves me with
no answers to the questions
all the learning lost
the memories and stories they tell
I constantly reach for recording machines – trying to capture everything I can
knowing that we live from moment to moment and I may never be
able to learn from them again…
But for now the only way I have of being with her is to edit, revise and re-member
preparing to present it – remember her voice – hoping she will wait to hear the feedback and tell me where to go next…
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